XrossGuang

别傻了

2012-01-15T02:31:00.003+08:00

光瑞，别傻了，人家明明比我好很多，没伤过你，又可以给你快乐，我能给你的也没比他多，又每次害你很累，害你很想哭，又害你害怕。

你给我得济会，我每好好珍惜，失去了能够怪虽？

他真的比我好很多。可是为社么我的心这么痛？

可是只要你开心就好了。我可以勇敢的为了你的快乐，忍忍这个痛。。

抱歉

2012-01-10T17:58:00.004+08:00

If your reading this, it meant I'm actually still something to you, I'm grateful and I'll keep this as short as possible.

Remember in the train, when I said, if I make another mistake, please ignore me? well, I did it again, I deserved it, I accept it and I'm not gonna whine about it.

I hate myself, because I'm the core reason for all your sadness, tears, tiredness.

You gave me many chances, 2 months, forgiven me and trying so hard to build a relationship to reciprocate me. I was stubborn, I kept making the same mistakes again and again, hurting you over and over giving you scars and tears.

Thinking about it the whole day, I came out with a decision.
Some people need to learn their lessons the hard way, and I'm one of them.

Your kind, really kind, you had been thinking about my feelings and negating your own, now its my turn to repay it.

I decided that we should stop talking to each other, I don't want to be a venom in your life and cause you harm any longer.

I'll live the next few days/weeks/months without you, I'll learn to be happy alone, I'll throw all the childishness and sissyness away. I'll improve myself. I won't approach you until I'm sure I matured. I'm gonna study hard, follow my hobby, see the world and brighten up my horizons.

Next time I talk to you, Your gonna see a new me, a mature me. I hope till then you will forgive me and accept me as a friend again.

I'm not leaving you, I'm just giving each other some space to chill out before things get worst. I just have one more request. I hope you do readd me on facebook, because if something happened to you, I do hope that I could still give you words of comfort to pull you up when you fall.

This song.. I dedicate it to you, as usual, please use your heart to listen to it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zsZ0Ovc7DzE

All of these I'm doing for, its not so that I could woo you again. Its so that I could be a better person you can rely on, comfort you and give you warmth, no matter what, I'll always care for you, even if you do hate me.

I'll stop here. Please don't text me to reply me after reading this. I want to stay strong with my decision in order not to let things go back to square one again.

I'm sorry HappyGirl Panda.
From, Your Piggy, always.

Good Morning people!

2010-02-04T05:56:00.002+08:00

Woah, Good Morning People! Yesterday din't go school.. AGAIN! =[ Fucked..... Lol

Okay imma do a quick update and then edited more tonight, For my plans for this blog

Tonight: A change of blogskin + some secrets of how i took care of my looks will be revealed!

Tomorrow (Friday) to next next wednesday (9) days, i will be making Snsd Dictonary, for those snsd fans Woots!

Sat Sun: Tune in to this blog guys, there will be some entertaining video, (Dance, and Guangy Tv!, a new type of video i will be putting it into my blog for all of your entertainment purpose, look forward to it people! there will be joy, laughter, sometimes tears! because its a series of life, not only revolving around me, but everyone!)

Hmm wow such a busy life i have, including school, but i love my life, say no to dota everyday after school!

Okay Look forward to tonight for my post! see you guys later after school!

Update

2010-02-02T04:11:00.003+08:00

Hmm Haven been sleeping much lately, Dance schedule so tight, with school, with life, argh! anyway, To all Readers, Dance of this month is going to be its you (Suju) and a secret song! keep guessing! ahahahaha

After Feb, i'll be officialy accepting all request from people who want me to dance any K-pop music! (Dance music please, no tinkerbell etc, actually i can dance to it LOL)

Anyway, Merry Xmas! time to post some pictures of myself!, going to post again in 2 days later or tomorrow because i have really nice stuff to share with you all!

YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED, SERIOUS CUTE/ACT CUTE PICTURES, LOOK AT YOUR OWN RISK!

Well

2010-01-12T19:41:00.003+08:00

Well not gonna talk about school today, its tiring, anyway Time for uploading the two remaining videos before sleeping!

Bo Peep

Sorry Sorry

Lets all thanks kitty Guang for "her" effort

There will be a new Guang Soon.
Devil Guang (Ps to someone)
No pics for now
And what artist is he going to dance to? i won't say for now :)

VOTE HERE IF YOU VIEWERS WNAT TO SEE MORE OF KITTY GUANG!

Voting Time up!

2010-01-11T20:34:00.006+08:00

Hmm, Voting time are out, and I'll know what to post for today!

A Dance of Sorry Sorry!

Hmm, did i look like i became fatter? Omg!

This Video i'm going to show now.

DID I BECOME FATTER?

Hmm hope you people enjoy it, should i Make another one?, i feel like i can improve alot more Anyway the other two videos will be uploaded tomorrow or so so stay tune!

Nerd and New

2010-01-11T18:26:00.007+08:00

Hey People!

Been Such a long time(almost half a month) i din't post something new. But everytime i posted, rest asure it won't be just texts!

Hmm Went to cut my hair yesterday, done rebonding and you won't belive this. i cutted bangs! (a special one).

It happened last night, when i went to cut my hair, discussed with michelle about how to cut, Hmm went there, talked to the stylist, Lol, she also confuse on how to cut, but yeeeeah, she said to do rebonding first, wow, this is the first time i rebond my hair and i don't know it could take so long hah. Hmm after rebonding, I looked at my hair, first thing I think was "Hmm not bad, now lets see what will i look like after my hair turned bang!"

So, Two stylist went to cut for me, (taking turns) One of them told me. "boy, do you really want to cut? your current hair is nice, "left side short right side long" a.k.a Moon hair." Then i said to her, i want try something new ah. Then she start to cut. i closed my eyes, after awhile i opened my eyes and it was like, Omg! How to go out with this hair? then i tell the stylist, "err, can you cut my fringe abit slant? because i think my fringe is very funny" she said, nope, you just rebonded, if u slant it, it will be ugly as my hair need re-ajust to a more shorter hairstyle. Then i was like haa. Nvm, Then She told me, she cut for people bangs, most of them their first impression also like me, must get used to it. Hmm, then i told her, can cut my bangs sort of err like, megaman helm shape? LOL I THINK I"M CRAZY. she then said, You cut bangs already not used to it already, i can comfirm that if you cut like that, you tonight won't want to leave this saloon already i was down there laughing and we chatted for like 15mins.

Okay ah, when cutted finish she said, "You try keep your hair for one week, if you still not happy with it, come back and i'll re-ajust for you and highlight some colour if you want to" i want, but I HAVE SCHOOL LOL and as everyone knows, i'm a good boy!

So, today went to school, on the Jounery To and Back from School, 70% of people who walked pass me stared at me, some smiled, i don't know weather what they were smiling about, but damn this hair get alot more attention then my moon hair LOL

Should i upload some pic of my new hair? Well Okay!

WAIT! Why is my face so redish? Lol!
The stylist said, if my sideburn and side grow longer, it will be very nice because i rebonded. Do you guys think so?

Anyway I have three videos to share with you all. but i don't want to upload them all at the same time because it will be very boring. so i'll open up a vote from now to 8:30Pm and the most vote gets the video to be uploaded

First Video
Sorry Sorry (New Year Video) by Junior Guang

Second Video
Bo Peep Bo Peep (For Fun) By Kitty Guang

Third Video
Sorry Sorry (For Fun) By Kitty Guang

Votes:
Sorry Sorry JG : 6
Bo Peep Bo Peep : 2
Sorry Sorry KG : 0

And no, I'm not gay, i dress-up like a cat purely because of the dance, I love boobs JOKING! but seroiusly, every man does, but seriously its quite pervertic when i said this, but seriously i'm not gay ahahahahahaha

Votes are up to 8:30 and video will be uploaded and will be watchable at around 9pm Stay tune!

New year eve!

2009-12-31T23:56:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone, well i made an video about this year. and hope you all enjoy it
Ps, i have to turn down my voice becuase it sucks too hard (i sucks at talking english) but i have to be fair to the malays so yeah.

my talking can be still heared but not so clear so i'll decided to sub it. sorry for mistakes. its my first time doing this. anyway, enjoy!

Lmao typo at the end, sorry!

Another thing, i decorated my room withhhhhhhhhhhhh

I DECIDED SINCE ITS THE END OF THE YEAR, IMMA TAKE A IDIOT PICTURE OF MYSELF (Y)

=D

Heh, and lastly,

happy new year and feel free to tag at my tagbox for comments and how you feel about 2009!

Merry belated xmas!

2009-12-26T11:10:00.008+08:00

Hey merry belated xmas to those i did not send my msg to last night!

Yesterday was a great day, celebrated with family, Gambled, Wine drinking, having a nice feast, wow, long time din't ate so much already, stomach is bursting.
After that, Went out with family, Damn, wanted xmas to last longer!

(Y)!

Sorry for not updating blog all these, was busy, but since its xmas, i'll make an exception!

And Lastly, Merry Belated Xmas!

Morning with a dream

2009-11-07T07:02:00.002+08:00

Yes, i just woke up. had a dream.

its a kind of dream that i wanted to happen it so much, but it will not happen, no, not in a million years. woke up, told myself, why would you have this dream? its time to end it, its been years, and you know this won't happen, not in a million years, no matter what you do, can you stop this thinking?

After that, i can't went back to sleep anymore. so decided to blog, will not tell anything about the dream i had.

How Good if dream was actually a message that God was trying to tell you?
But we got to face the facts, dream are just something that happened because your thinking of the incident too much.

5years, it should had been made clear already, i told myself enough times. Give Up

Okay, don't really have anything to blog now. see if i have time in the night to blog, thanks for reading though, and for some who guessed what i've dream, Yes, i've given up, thats why i was scolding myself and looked at the ceiling for 30mins after i woke up.

I'M so emo!

2009-11-06T04:20:00.002+08:00

Lol omg I can't sleep, this is gay hmm a sudden feel
to blog now because of a sad song I'm listening right now hmm let's see, wow
in a flash, 2009 sec four students has just ended school, I remember how it was like last year when I'm sec four damn I'm so emoooooo right now! Gonna work hard next year ah. Hmm think I go. Crazy today and write
a poem of my own.
This body of mine, which god gave me
I'm sorry that I dint make good use of this body god gave me
I'm sorry I lived on this world
I'm a piece of trash that even hell don't want to take me in even after I die
I'm a useless junk that even if I were thrown into the sea full of sharks, I've only drowned but not eaten because even sharks look down on me
I'm such a failure that I fail to live

The end OMG! Such a emo poem i'll write a happy one right now

I love my food
I love my house
I love my friends
I love my family
I love god
I love my stuff
I love the girl I love
and lastly I love sooyoung <3

ahahahaha

Cakup malayu Aku tagbox if malay kau

Lol okay ah bored so played with my blog looks like I have nothing to right anymore hmmmmmmm if anyone Is actually reading my blog i Want to entertain you all more let's see

Do you all remember the time where you are still a primary school kid
with no worries and troubles just living day by day , watching life grow as your still a child who don't have to worry about anything at all? Day by day!

Sorry I am just too bored okay ah I'll stop here already later to
orrow cannot wake up go out gonna change my blogskin soon Lol

thanks for reading people im going to do something else right now
best if sleep ah goodnight!

Blog For Oct 6 ~ 8

2009-10-11T19:41:00.008+08:00

okay so 6th was sleeping, woke up, muscle was very pain, whole body pain. suppose to go out with chun, then last min ting not going (expected >.>) told chun i'm not going too, but then, he scolded me cause he bad mood Lol. after that, i went anyway. meet chun yong, benji, pohyi , naomi at interchange and their face was all black because i was late for quite a time. changed plan to timah pool. played there then dennis and his stead( sorry i don't know how to spell your name. Lol) came continue pooling and went to mac to have their dinner.

After that we went to the food court opposite of mac to have ANOTHER DINNER LOL. walked to the bus stop after that. everyone went home except me, chun which is going to stay at dennis's house. took the bus, dennis bring his girl home and i and chun went to brought food. (i haven't ate just now) took the bus again. went to dennis house and had my dinner. so. i, chun and dennis played dota to 7am and we went to bed. dennis have two comp and i have 1 lappy so.. yep hah. anyway. they slept and i was awoke every 1hour. dennis's room is like a freezer to me. i can't even breath. he had a 17degree..... Lol which i was freezing like hell. so awoke till 10am. know his aunt and mom was awoke. went to turn off the air con and sleep! (Y)

woke up around 12pm? damn i was sleepy.... dennis's stead came. and then i went with chun downstairs to buy breakfast. saw alot sec school people there. so its quite crowded. brought fries and bubble-tea up. eaten bathed and preprare to go out.

we were suppose to go to changi to see MJ but then. i was too lazy haha, went to juntion 8 first instead, met naomi and then went to town. walked there from 4pm to 10pm? oh. we went to a thai restaurant. their food was great. but then. its all treated,

drinks from naomi
food from chun yong

thank you!

after eaten back to more walking. hmm let me remember what did we do...
oh went to do some window shopping, i and chun was testing clothes. oh. i think they brought some clothes i know chun and naomi brought. i din't haha i have no money. lets see. its time to went home. dennis took mrt with his stead. i, naomi and chun bused home

nah not exactly home. we went mac. naomi went to meet marcella. i and chun went to meet benji and pohyi. they treated us sandwitch. quite nice ah haha. benji was playing L4D with my lappy. well it hangs sometimes. my lappy had some installation problems while installing l4d. hmm there after benji played. he was using a machine gun. just nice the thing hang. and there was this sound BANGBANGBANGBANG IT WAS LOUD LOL i think half of the people in the mac can hear it. force shut down my lappy. chated with them awhile. and took 300 home.

Here is my photo while at dennis's house

Damn this flash light!

Hmm my face look fat in this pic =[

Hmm this version of flash like was quite nice.

Finally a nice pic (i look gay ahahaha)

Haha there is 1 more post i want to post about yesterday. but i don't want to post now because it will be very confusing to read. so, i'll post tomorrow Thanks for reading people!

TIRED!

2009-10-06T02:01:00.004+08:00

Aw so damn tired!

woke up at 8am, watched finish super junior episode. THEN GO BACK SLEEP BECAUSE I WAS TOO SLEEPY LOL!

woke up at 12pm again. went out at 1pm to meet jun wei, after that went to syafiq's house bus stop to meet ting and jun wei. went to lot 1. meet azrie, after that to meet chun yong. hmm should i continue? I"M SO SLEEPY AND TIRED LOL!

hmm nvm i'll write on. after that went bugis street to buy new clothes. hmm, ting, azrie and me wanted to buy clothes. but there is no clothes that we like! Lol!

after that, some people were hungry. so we walked to err (Forgot name) place to eat. hmm their food was nice. but quite expensive. (worth it actually Lol!). after eating. walked to penicular ( sorry forgotten how spell). it was around a 30mins walk. damn it was good exercise after eating so much ahahaha

reached peni, meet dennis, and then went to see more clothes.

YAWN! I"M TOO TIRED TO CONTINUE LOL! sorry dear readers, i shall continue tomorrow! THERE IS TOO MUCH TO WRITE ABOUT TODAY!

okay i'm at home now. think i'll continue, walked to peni, meet dennis and then went to buy clothes, hmm this time we brought clothes, jun wei also brought 1 too. after that. i went to re-pierce my ear good ah this time no problem.

walked to marina to play pool after that. hmm guess what, syafiq has become better lol and azrie has started playing too.

went to mrt. brought a new ezlink. and all went home

EXCEPT FOR ME, TING, CHUN LOL

okay so. we went to chun's house. ting was trying out his clothes and brought some, so i tried some too. chun gave me one of his clothes for free. went to ting jun's house after that. dyed hair and guess what? its not brown. shared with him 50 - 50 bottle. and my hair isn't brown. guess i should ask ting for 5 bucks for that. went home, used comp awhile and then sleep

Done LOL

pictures and videos will be uploaded soon after chun sent me all those stuff

Suay

2009-09-30T18:59:00.002+08:00

hmm i shall blog about ytd. woke up, went out lot 1 with nex and ting. meet ting at 12:50. went his house at 12.50 HE WAS FREAKING UNPREPARED! so waited at his house outside. around 10min he came out, went to lot 1 to have my piercing. YOU KNOW WHAT? THE PERSON PIERCE DAO MY VEIN LOL my whole ear lobe become darkish blue. damn, ting and nex was shock, ting asked me to pull out or else it will be a dead ear. i decided to leave it there awhile and see how.

went to nex house. while there smsed friends asked if what is happening to my ear. some replyed the same thing as ting said. and a certain people just smsed me Lol (Y). hmm not angry or what. just speechless when i saw this reply. forget it. went to nex house to eat. his mom cooking was good Lol she cooked alot. after eating. when to "toyed" with nex comp while he was preparing to go out.

went home. pulled out earing. gary said it will be painless but there will be many blood. i just pull LOL before my whole ear become blue black. so i pulled it out. there was some pain but its nothing. pulled out, not a single drop of blood Lol! anyway yeah

I"M GOING TO PIERCE AGAIN LOL (Y)

a feeling which i lost it in a long time

2009-09-26T21:38:00.001+08:00

Hmm i have this feeling today which i lost a long time ago

"Missing"

Damn, starting to miss someone, its been 2 or 3 years since i have this feeling for someone new. as a friend or whatsoever

what does this meant?

Hmmmmmmmm

Will i be missed? :D

Back!

2009-09-22T07:37:00.004+08:00

Woah Good morning people. yesterday finally had time to signed in msn before midnight Lol. chatted with a few people on msn. hmm 2 days ago i sent out a msg to see if who really treat me as a friend. and these are the people who replied out of all the people in my contacts

Junwei
Azrie
Wei ta
Gary
Haqim
Clarence
Ting Jun
Syafiq
Ezum
Chun Yong
Dennis
Guan Xiong

Lol. i have that much friends. what if you all asked me if i'm disappointed, i can only say i'm disappointed @ classmates. 4 years of friendship not even worth 5 cent of sms. nice one people.

anyway lets take the topic out shall we? lets turn the mood up. hmm to all malay. selamat hari raya. tomorrow is gonna be another busy day again. heh. if you all are wondering about what i'm gonna do tomorrow read on to find out ^^

More

More

Almost there

I'll tell you all tomorrow ^^
And one last thing, thanks for reading! Bye

Don't know what you all wants.

2009-09-20T03:20:00.002+08:00

hmm today is a fucked up day.

woked up. chat abit. alot happened.

friends says want things. next thing don't want
just because i overslept people have to give me attidude
what is this?
what you all want?

i'm starting to feel i don't have any people i can count on anymore.
thinking of remaking my looks. hmmmmm
if i really did it. i'm going to remake a 360 degree change.

stay tunes and hope tml will be a better day kthxbai

Police station

2009-09-19T05:34:00.010+08:00

Lol today is a busy day. woke up, doing usual stuff. till 9pm. wanted to watch show, then azrie told me in msn to go police station with him. so yeah followed him because he had some problems ah.

reached there. we thought the police station were closed, then a auntie told us that there is someone inside. SHE SHOUT BODOH! LOL WE MAKING POLICE REPORT SHE OSO SHOUT LOL feel like laughing but dun want ah -.- and a guy's head pop out! LOL its the police! yeah after that, azrie made the report, ( lost his wallet ) Gg.

so yeah, we walked back to lot 1 while chatting about azrie's problems ah Lol. eated mac, and you know he treated me. i was having fillet o fish meal. and he was having a ice cream damn. lol gotta return him the money. after awhile. saw alwyn which i din't seen him since p6. he talked to me and azrie like we are closed friends. cmon LOL he dun even know azrie and his already talking alot to him LOl, but nvm ah he intro us some jobs. cool the jobs he intro have high pay and good working time. great just what me and azrie wanted.

after that, he left and i and azrie continued our chatting. after awhile, chun, vanessa and cynthia came. hmm. they had their dinner and after that they went out to smoke. cept chun Lol. gotta respect him sometimes. he don't get influence like the others do.

yes, after awhile benjamin came, and we chatted around 1am. was helping chun yong on his ipod assassin creed, idk how to play. but i managed to help him solved a puzzle he can't solve which i don't know what i did. Lol. yeah

Hey people, finally benji gave me something LOL! sure return the favor ah. anyway walked home with azrie and talked about ghost. its best when the streets are empty. not even a car or human around which mades it more exciting. after that i went home and thats the end of this post.

will update again soon. byebye

and i hate my new hair. should not cut this hair. oh well, have to wait it to grow long again before i change back my old hairstyle. hmm. these few days have been busy ah. so i'm sorry if anyone were looking for me these past few days thanks for reading people bye!

and btw if people were wondering how come i posted such at a late time. well i've been busy editing my blog template. love it! ^^ my best skin so far. ( with credits to the template maker of cause. ^^ )

<3 my new blogskin and new playlist <3

rate 1 ~ 10 on my tagbox pls ^^

Today Post, Yesterday's Story

2009-09-05T23:56:00.002+08:00

Hmm gonna post about ytd because i really went home late and don't have the energy to blog yesterday

So. Ytd. hmm Woke up at 10am, Meeting Ting jun and Clar at 5:30. Then Leave home at 5:40 to meet ting. Lol. Reached lam soon 7/11 at 5:45 and waited for ting. he arrived 6:05 =.= walked to lot 1 and reached at 6:30. Clar was waiting for us at lot 1 for 1 hr 30mins lol. sad boy

hmm went to walk around lot 1. followed ting to eat his dinner after that. we prepared to go church. Reached there. The church Told us alot of things that went through my head. Not bad Not bad after the speech Went down and Some Friends Talk to me and clar about Christianity in meanwhile, they took a photo for us

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Sorry for the bad quailty. i have no scanner :( anyway the order goes like this. ( Ting Jun , Me ( jiao bin ) , Clarence , jiahui )

So yep both me and clar got that photo as we were first timer. should make funny face LOL After church, i gave clarence a hoodie and asked him to give michelle, cool it was 11:15, clarence's father called and shouted at clar and ask where is him. ting jun talked to clar what to tell his father, but his father clever lol. he heard ting and shout at phone to ask him DIAM LOL I WAS LAUGHING LIKE MAD. so yeah i and ting accompany clar at lakeside mrt till 12+ he finally arrived =.= took mrt home with ting, reached cck around 12:30 and walked home with ting. reach my house downstairs around 12:50 and now u know why i'm too tired to blog. i have been walking all day LOL.

oh did i mention about i saw a child slipping down in the bubble tea store? it was funny how she feel. took around 5 sec trying to struggle in the end still fell. i and ting was trying not to laugh about it because her mother was there. and clar, he just laughed away GG

so yeah it was a pretty nice day. and think there will be more update near the future goodbye readers !

What a long time

2009-08-10T22:05:00.002+08:00

wow what a long time i've no update hmmm. lets see, went to lot 1 today
early in the morning nex ting jun and jun wei tell me that they don't want come hmm. fucked up somemore ask me dota lol. but end up ting jun and jun wei came. went to meet clar to buy present for michelle

spended 2 hrs to buy a present for her LOL
wanted to get a soft toy, but gave her one alr, give another one is lame LOL

then, i saw a golden duck wanted to buy it but ting say its lame so din't buy

ting suggest to buy a file but i don't think she needs a file now.

wanted to buy a bag, but jun wei says Bag will easily lose taste.

ting show me a clock, wow nice winnie the pooh clock, wanted to buy ALMOST BROUGHT then jun said cannot I FORGOT YOU CANNOT GIVE A CLOCK TO PEOPLE LOL HENG NO BUY

yeah. saw a set of small dogs. hmm but clar told me she will lose it gg

ting wanted me to buy a toy cockroach gg

jun wei suggested a chime. but clar says there is no place to put

then ting saw a very hairy racoon. quite nice, but don't want give any soft toys le. hmm

in the end, saw a set of 4 dogs there. i know i have to buy it.

i still think up a meaning leh =D

1st dog, Doing Well in Studies
2nd dog, Doing Well in Relationships
3rd dog, Doing well in Money
4th dog, Doing well in Health

All together makes a perfect Doing well in life set =D

Hmm i think michelle still don't know i'm the one who buy cause i told clar to tell her its jun wei who buy and i don't care about any presents GG LOL

actually, the main point is not on whether she knows the present is from me anot, the main point is, they really bless u doing well in life. so yep

went to mac after buying the present, ting jun and jun wei need to eat so yeah. followed them

after that. went to ting jun's house. helped him in his warcraft 3 as it is not working. done, and accompany jun wei to buy his DUCK RICE LOL GET IT? GOLDEN DUCK? LOL can't believe i am actually laughing a little. anyway treat clar a bubble tea on the way. clar took 975 home and i went home with jun wei.

so yeah this is my day. let me see what i learn from the Holy Bible

Here are some useful phrases

A double Minded Man is unstable in all hisways

Let no man say when he is tempted, i am tempted of God: for God cannot be tempted with evil, neither tempteth he any man: but

But every man is tempted when he is drawn away of his own lust, and enticed

Do not err, My beloved brethren

yeah that is all.

and Michele if your reading this post. Hmm read the below paragraph

The house sure holds alot of memories

The house where i first came and made your whole family angry
The Road where i and ting jun lie down on for forgiveness
The house where i ran to just to give u a strawberry sundae when u feel like eating it
The house where i always deliver drinks
The house where i gave u ur presents and always made a smile to your face
The house where i always deliver ice cream after work
The house where i lied down on the grass patch with my friends just to look at your house door.

Those Things are something that cannot be replaced by anything because it is a unforgettable memories. i still remembered everything that i've done in the past. i can't forget it even if i wanted to.

now your moving away. the house will be taken by another person. but the memories containing in the house will still be there.

Yeah, thats all i have to say. I want to thank, Chun yong, jun wei , ting jun and lastly, dennis for making these memories came true.

Hey. How i wish i could control time, so that i've can do a better job to help you, you know, do alot more than just giving you things, how i wish that i could just fucking talk face to face with you last time about your problems how i wish i could really lend out a hand to takecare of you . how i wish that i have some money to help your family. even it cost all my belonging include my life. how i wish i could mature more faster back in the days so that i can have the ability to solve your problems.

Yeah, year passed and your already grown up. i know you can be strong.

But There is no man who can control time. so all i request is

God, if your up there. Can you help me take some of my Luck to give Michelle? Thats my wish. Even i have to be unlucky for my life time Just to Give a little luck. i'll still be glad.

In the past. i had a dream. a dream about me dying and became a angel. ( know its werid ) and then i heard a voice. saying "who do you want to protect as a guardian angel?" before i could answer. i've woke up. but without any doubt there is only one who i want to protect.

yes, i know its weird of me to suddenly say out all these things. but look. in the past. i have always kept my feelings to myself. but look at now. your moving already. so i decided to say now before i lose my chance. i decided to pour out my courage and type what i really think here.

thats all i have to say. yeah u can say this post is dedicated to michelle. i can't deny it.

K, i said what i should say already. Bye and all the best

HOLYFUCK

2009-07-18T08:29:00.002+08:00

eh the post below me no not i going die. clearing storeroom then go die wtf? LOL eh anyway no not me what a misunderstanding! OMG LOL anyway hmm morning now. so
at ntie then post again ^^

Sorry for not updating

2009-07-16T17:19:00.006+08:00

yep sorry for not updating for so long. anyway well last last sat. i know its a long time ago =.= but well got some pic to show so yeah. was clearing storeroom. mostly was clothes letters. and some items

$40USD
4 scooters. 2 were spoilt
1 skateboard(wtf?)

Yes this! the Tamiya dash 1 which is the first model that actually came out. i think o_O and the most memorial about this thing is this was brought by cynthia 3 years ago ^^ Thank u LOL

The Bag Chun yong gave me =[ damn lol thanks u chun =]

the old bag that i brought spoilt now LOL after that i have to carry a fucking plastic bag to school everyday until i brought a new bag. LOL

yep. so yeeah not gonna upload any ghost pic since michelle said to blog something about myself. hmm well i'm done =D anyway last thing to say

This Month. Another person dies.
some of you will know what i'm talking about. but those who knows. please for the sake of god. don't go telling people even friends. don't want to get into trouble. cya =D

=D

2009-07-03T20:19:00.001+08:00

well i'm bored again. so another picture =]

A Gift

2009-07-02T15:35:00.002+08:00

well woke up and was bored. decided to post a picture =]

Changed blog

2009-06-30T23:56:00.003+08:00

Heh Dead bodies. Lol

Finally updated my blog. want do that long time ago. but keep forgetting anyway this is my new blog

went to haizum's bbq was quite okay went there at 1st with me azrie and jun wei
omg 3 emo kids sitting there lol.
then 9+ came benji dennis chun and xiong after that more talking
wanted to prank call chu de but. hmm they went sunshine and me azrie and jun wei went home.

u know, humans so werid. they wanted people to share with them but they don't want to give out. what is this? lol. c'mon. if anyone were to come my blog and saw this post and u know what i'm referring to. don't need to say anything. i'm not angry. just understand that i'll stop sharing with you. from now onwards till u changed

Heh. every once in a while i got people which is my friends mocking me that i can't dance. well i'm not gonna scold either. i'm just gonna practice my best don't really care about what people said. even if its from my friends. i'll prove them wrong. yeah.

still. i got a freaking fringe. nvm its okay to change it once in a while.

today. someone make a very freaking joke to me that pierced my heart deep. my past. i'm trying to forget that chapter in my life and move on to the next. and then u had to bring it up to let me remember it again become i freaking used a sub msn. please. stop. can't u see i'm trying to let go of it? i din't scold not because i'm okay with it. i'm trying to tolerate it because your my friend. but please. i know its a joke so i'm not gonna bring it out further. once again. if people pulled the line again. then there is no point continuing this friendship am i right?

lets stop talking about that now. and yeah. 2 more month to practice must work hard already.

lets stop here.

oo

2009-05-25T19:31:00.000+08:00

hmm working on upgrading my chero. cb fever. anyway i'm improving at a slow rate. but i have alot of time. lol no time blog back to training bye

Yo

2009-05-22T06:45:00.002+08:00

Haha i'm back!
so happy! finally finished my choreography for my dance. hmm dunno if i got my spelling right. anyway hmm. performance at teachers day. hmmmmmmmmmm hope i don't make any mistake. well plenty of time to come out with bigger and better moves. will post my chero later on after i finished the final touch. and btw fck all the posts below this ^^

5 more days to go.

2009-04-14T16:06:00.002+08:00

yep 2 days have passed since i decided to do this.
5 more days to next week.

lets see.
will i become better or worst?
let fate decide

To be continued

Just a video

2009-04-13T14:01:00.002+08:00

God, i'm not the type to talk to people. i don't want to lose another friend again. i should keep my mouth shut in case something happen. stuff everything to myself. so many things i want to talk but just could not say it out anymore.

The feeling of fear to lose a friend

I don't even dota anymore.

These few days, i've just been telling myself. i have to change. but i still want to live the life i was. just be myself. but. FUCK I DON"T EVEN DARE TO TALK ANYMORE

crap. living like this. i rather die.

2 choice here yeah?

1. Just Change myself
2. Death

I can't take this anymore. Fear is building up inside my heart. dear readers.

do you have this feeling of wanting to talk to the person more. but just afraid that u'll lose that one person who is important to you? regardless of friend, family or any other relationship you have with that person? well i have.

i really admire those people who can live so carefree.

i tired so hard. to make people around happy. i failed horribly
perhaps, i'm just not the person to make people happy.
maybe, i should just be quited
maybe, i'm just not the guy to have any friend
maybe, i landed on this world by mistake

yep. look at the bright side of life? don't crap me.

i don't think i can

thank people who put up against me.
but now you don't have to anymore.

because, i've choose to walk my path by myself.

guess this is what they called failure huh?

can't even send out a message without looking at the send button for time
lets end this reading shall we?

Goodbye

Fever but for a promise to be kept. it was worth it

2009-04-11T22:05:00.003+08:00

Fuck. i got a fever, feeling is like burning in hell. lol. Spended yesterday night outside make video. alot of NGs, alot of mistake made. lucky my fingers is almost recovering soon. god. my injury recover fast lol. now whats left is my fever. must eat alot of panadols already.

but for my new video. It was all worth it =D

Thinking alot lately. and finally found an answer

2009-04-08T22:30:00.003+08:00

Yeah. another day has passed. okay, i'm going to write some of my things here. some of you may found this shocking. but, now i had made an answer. yep

First of all, its not an april fool joke.

Emo
okay. lets see, this may be quite similar to all my friends, yes. sometime i may be emo. why? now its time for me to say the answer

Its because i'm afraid of everything
Yes. i'm afraid of everything, i afraid of losing another friend. to people whom always talked to me on msn/sms me, u people want to know why i took so long to reply? its because i'm afarid i will say something wrong, looking at the msg for 5mins before replying sometime. yes, call me stupid. afarid of me being iritating to people. yes, thats the feeling i always had when i talked to people.

To my friends, okay, these days i know i've been acting weird to you guys. i'm sorry, its because i'm in a mixed feeling. so yeah. finally found the answer.

If you scare of iritating other people, don't talk in the first place

If you are scare of losing friend, don't make them angry, in order to do that. is to don't talk too much

If you are scare to saying something wrong to people. don't even talk in the first place

Yeah, i'm going to currently closing my door out for everyone for now. sorry for being a fucker.
I'm going to write a long list

(Friends who i talked to these past few days)

Azrie: Thanks for all the good time. Hope ur happy with ur $1.2k don't anyhow spend okay?

Benji: Sorry but your memory card will have to wait, be happy always

Catherine: Heh, Our chatting time is short, but at least its good yeah? Sorry, guess the video will be the first and last thing i do for you. so it'll be one of my best. cheer up and be strong, i must be a fucker. said wanted to be ur listening ear and now i'm closing my door. hah...sorry

Chun Yong: Thanks for the birthday yeah? stay long with ur stead

Connie: Lol thanks for coming to my birthday

Clarence: sorry for not replying, yeah really sorry. but i won't be ever replying again

Dennis: Have fun with ur new ds, u stay long with ur stead too okay?

Haqim: Haqimo!, heh, be pro in ur dota. supass me =]

Jessica: hmm, guess i'll never be mature for a short time =]

Jun wei: lol, ur the funny one. hope that your find something more better then viwawa. good luck

Michelle: hmm. let me guess what your going to say first before i said anything. fool? lol. anyway. your the song queen. don't need me to send you song one. haha

Sabrina: sorry but you have to keep the birthday present for awhile ya?

Ting jun: lol, i don't know what to talk to you eh thanks for the funny times? lol

Vanessa: yep, thanks for coming too. Hope u do well in life

Not all friends are included. sorry

That closed up some of my speech and yeah, let me say the last. Sorry people. i'll still may reply on msn, but not that much though. but i'll never be the first one to talk to people anymore. I'll never be able to care for people. i don't even know if the people i cared ever appricated it or i'm just being a bug to them either way. yeah, you guys don't have to worry about people like me anymore

i have many good friends. i closed my door because i don't want to lose u guys. not because i don't like you guys. remember it always. new friends, old friends. all applys.

so yeah. guess this is byebye.

My health is starting to fall too

stomach nowadays feels werid, no appitite. tell me i'm pregent and i will fuck you.
having real stm (short term memory)

Guess i've Smo** too much. yes.

don't worry, i'm not gonna die.

i'm a fucker yep.

goodbye all.
sorry for not replying to all of tags.

wa thank you god, finally can study le =]

2009-04-06T00:18:00.005+08:00

wow best birthday present god has given me. a chance to study =]

okay, now its 12am. the top 5 people who said to me happy birthday:

1.Sabrina
2.Catherine ( best birthday wishes )
3. jun wei
4. Benjamin, Chun Yong, Vanessa, Connie ( funniest birthday wishes)
5. TingJun

anyway why i said Catherine gave the birthday wish is because

Birthday cake

Birthday card

and for the funniest bday wishes, haha its related to "car accident" =]

haha yep. thanks everyone i love u all =D
(i have good friends, thank you god for letting me meet them)

Birthday plan

2009-04-05T10:09:00.003+08:00

okay finally some free time. woots!!

(i'm going to wear gay clothes tomorrow :D)

okay so heres the plan

we will all meet at ( pending, wait) mrt station at 5pm
we will go night safari (for Pontianak (by azrie) )
after that, those who cannot stay longer will go home as in some got school
those who can, will go to pasir ris and rent a bike to ride until the next morning
thats the plan. yeah

and i hope that NO MORE KFC like 2008 =]

people who are coming: (more to be updated)
jun wei
chun yong
dennis
benji
azrie
tingjun
guan xiong

so yeah keep looking

Going Back To The Past

2009-03-07T17:56:00.003+08:00

wow looking back when i was in secondary school. good times...

getting scolded by teachers because they care about me
staying back because they care about my studies

now that i think back. Look people, if u guys nag about how late u all stay back. think about the teachers. at least they spend their time with us when they could go home and sleep.

now,

there is no one scolding me for doing things.
there is no staying back in studies

not a greater life but, a more bored life

people, think about the past when u spend your time in secondary school, open your eyes. look at the past, remember the time when we use to spend time together? remember those smiles and tears we took together? i remember every mini seconds.

but life isn't looking back at the past and thinking how great is was, life is looking forward and finding new challenges and adding chapters to your story.

to people who is looking at my blog, thanks for reading, i know, this wasn't about my today's story for whatever. but i really want to say this out. i want to say everything out because i have a flashback of us in the past. yes it sounds impossible but i did have a flashback. you can called it a daydream but. its undeniable that i saw every one of us in the past. sitting down the class, having lessons.

people who are reading my blog and feel sad, don't because, this is not meant for you people to be sad, it is to tell people that, stop looking back and move foward. to people who want to quit their studies, i have to say this, life without school sucks. sure, it may be fun once in a while without school. but think about your future. parents are not there for you forever, friends, one day will need to spend their money on their soul mate and children. Working now isn't the right thing to do. u can work part time, but don't quit your studies for work, the salary isn't enough

it may be God passing this message to me. so, i decided to share it here, and thanks again, thanks for reading my post, may good luck be with you.

decided to stop here.
takecare

wow finally

2009-02-23T00:01:00.002+08:00

hmm well promised alot people to update my blog
sad tagged by that michelle ass and i have no choice to update now LOL

k soooo yeah

dance vid up? lmao
sad i have nothing to say life is getting boring, want to be a more better dancer !!

Tagged by Michelle Seoooooooooooooo

1. Besides Ur lips,where is the favorite spot to get kissed?
- hmm, cheeks? lmao

2. How do u feel when u wake up this morning?
- headache, yesterday was dancing and dancing at night LOL

3. Who was the last person u took photo with?
- Omg i always take solos photos, if u want to say last, its last year with benji? lmao

4. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
- Nah its for rich kids LOL

5. Would you ever donate blood?
- maybe?, Its hard to say it but, i'm scare of injections LOl, but i'm willing to donate blood to people who are closed to me, or if they invent something that wun make injection ( take out ur blood) pain i would do it for free =], or when i die, my blood is also foc xD

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was the opposite sex?
- eehhhhhh, i have too many best friends, male and female LOL

7. Do u wan someone dead?
- Nope, but i want people to be undead >=D

8. What does ur last text message says?
- Goodnight? LOL

9. What are u thinking right now?
- Audi? =DDDDDDD

10. Do you wish someone to be with you right now?
- yep

11. What is the time you go to bed last night?
- 1pm LOOOOOOOOL

12. Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?
- I forgot

13. Is someone on ur mind right now?
- Yes. its always in my mind 24/7

14. Who was the last person who texted you?
- Sabrina Lee

10 people tagged to do this quiz.
1) Yap Jun Wei
2) Pohyi, Wong
3) Connie, Lim
4) Kelly, Lee
5) Meikiang, Ng
6) Dennis Piay
7) Ezum
8) Arzie
9) can i tag back? LOOOL SEO MICHELLE
10) Chunyong, Toh

15. Who is 2 having a relationship with?
- Baojian. (i own)

16. Is 3 a male or female?
- Female (i own again)

17. If 7 and 10 get tgt,would it be a good thing?
- Funny couple lmao

18. What is 1 studying about?
- How to make bombs

19. When was the last time u had a chat with them?
- All of them?

20. Is 4 single?
- Yep, i think so

21. Say something about number 2?
- Crazy people LOOOL

22. What do you think about 3 & 6 being tgt?
- I will laugh for 3 days non stop after that i die =]

23. Describe 9?
- Good finally xD, 40% retard +10% funny + 10% sweet + 30% scary +5% crazy + 5% entertaining =D

24. What will you do if 6 n 7 fight?
- not gonna happen =]

25. Do you like 8?
-as a friend okayokay, as other no?

THE END GOODBYE
THE BLOG IS GONNA BE DEAD AGAIN
LOOOLOLOL

joking bye

NO 6TH Day

2009-01-19T01:26:00.003+08:00

lol sorry about not blogging yesterday, okay now for the blog

Sat:
Oo Funny day it is, i have so much appointment, Cool! Jessica, or her mom, invited me to her family's reunion dinner on sat. Cool! but Idk LOL anyway ya lets talk about today ==

Sunday:
oo Ok boring day. let me share a vid with u guys

his moves make u all cry man!!

CCB 4TH day

2009-01-17T02:20:00.004+08:00

sad 4th Day....... F#@K. hey guess what? this is my new psp lmao

lol going to change the skin after i'm rich, hmm okay, nothing much to write about. Sad Thing is Next sat is hwee chen's bday and i have a appointment. Omg, maybe i should go to appointment 1st then come? or postpone it? Hmmm a freaking choice to make, but i'll defently be in her birthday okay gtg now

kthxbai

3Rd Day

2009-01-16T01:06:00.001+08:00

Okay there is only one thing to say, mac book is hard to catch a virus. End of Story KthxBai

White psp Slim Here i Come =D
byebye my dear wii

The 2ND Day

2009-01-14T23:07:00.000+08:00

OO okay, this is wednesday, Wow Time Flows so fast, and today i din't went to school again, omg, i'm going to sch tomorrow, yeah boring day, spended $100 on something =D not gonna say, and yes i have nothing much to write as its a boring day today as i said so yeah cya all tomorrow

UpDated

2009-01-13T20:04:00.002+08:00

Wow Finally After few longgggggggggggggggggggggggggggg months, i finally revived my blog, wonderful i know, okay about my story,
well lifes fine, cept 1 thing, ITE the whole new level of schooling, 1 word to describe it, stress. i have a feeling to changing course, should i change it? i don't know, gonna think about it tonight. michelle msged me that she tio something wow and i din't reply cause my msg got paused ( nvr pay bill) i'm poor!!!, so if your reading this, don't scold me, girl. say thank because i include this in my blog :D anyway this is all i have to say for now, gonna have a suprise for my special friend tomorrow so cya readers

( i'm gonna to make this blog diff from others out there!)

exam crazyness

2008-09-03T12:21:00.004+08:00

/= question mark, both my shift button got crushed =.=

hi, here to post, its been a long time since i post, and yep i'm going to change my blogskin soon, guys know what/ i'm going to polish my breakdance skill yeah, after my exam, i'm going to make my dance move sky high, yeah stressing for exam. the last lap with all my friends. after this no more study le. must do my best argh.

so long, going to post much more when i'm free cyas

Drunk Man Drunk !

2008-08-03T16:55:00.003+08:00

What a good day i had on Sat, morning went to arcade to play WCCF god, i'm really going to study hard as i have a 50 marks on friday test , and sad, i had eaten my med so i am abit blur like, 2 x 1 = 3? -.- soooooooo many mistakes i made okays at night went to yujie house, and i was like, omfg? did i just get owned cause yu jie said to all his friend shuai ge lai de and there was like 20plus ppl and, i am paiseh? i'm ugly luhs dey if u all wan see real shuai ge, go www.google.com and type luo zhi xiang =x , ok their family tom yum was 1st class, and i'm going to learn how to cook it =D, had alot of beer in mk der room while they watching ghost movie and i laughed all the way though, can hear they telling me to diam but that time i was drunk so i just sorry all the way, after that we go sing a birthday song to the birthday boy and me , dennis , chun , jun wei took the bus, so paiseh lo, i crawled in the bus like a retard -.- and i was like going vomit but in the end i'm alrights =D, i think i remembered slamming the door at the mrt as i thought it was my home, oh well i was drunk right? okays going to go out study now wif the same ppl and yea, someone yesterday night told me 7 words that changed my mood, though there is little words but every words have a meaning to me yea? if your reading this, i wanna said this to you, thank you.

2008-07-25T03:50:00.006+08:00

Okays, Sorry for not posting these few days, was sick, and i'm going to post a fast one now, tomorrow is a sure die day also, sat coming.. woots -.-, and i found out today that i dunno how to spell tounge, i dun even know how to spell now, so i just say the red meat inside ur mouth, lol okays going to go sleep now, byebye

Good Friends are always there for you

2008-07-22T00:32:00.005+08:00

today i had a cool day at school because i had my Chinese oral and i think i'll pass because i had use many word to talk with the oral teacher, after i had my oral, went to DNT and start doing my work, my wood is shining like plastic now. at night went go play comp for less den 30mins den uncle wan use comp, went out to do homework with ting jun, chun yong and jun wei, dar called, talked on phone till 9+ after that never contact each other ler, went to play basketball after do homework, we had some serious basketball training as ting jun is the coach, i had the most score wif 2 pointers as we train =) thinking about lots of things lately, sms-ed Angie and told her what happen to me, thanks Angie for concerning me, and my brothers and sisters too. okays getting late ler. better off comp and do abit homework den went to bed and wait for the next day.

things had become unstable lately, just don't feel the way that it used to anymore like the last time.

joyce lee xin le is the one

2008-07-20T03:00:00.004+08:00

hi all sry for not blogging the day before yesterday, was too tired, 20/7/08 was a hmm dunno what to say, ah forget it lets talk about today, morning was a fine day but dunno why i suddenly dream about losing u, i woke up check my hp and realise it was a dream and i almost cried for the 3rd time in my life, after when i primary 5, sms-ed dar awhile, she had to attend a wedding, that made me think of something, what if it was us who are the groom and bride? hahas, dang my shift button does not works anymore so i have to copy and paste every sign key i have, afternoon went out with chun yong, dennis and jun wei, saw food, wanna eat but can't eat, have to save money for something, and i'm not going to eat at school for the next 2 weeks or spend anything, dam funny luhs, dennis used 5dollars to play cup, but in the end he loses at the semi finals and he was like shouting till the whole acarde can hear, at night talked wif dar awhile, until she msged me something that made me abit worried, that question totally made scary feeling in my heart till now, sms-ed halfway, think dar felt asleep, nvm bahs sleep well i think i won't be sleeping, not that i dun wan to sleep, is that i can't sleep, dam chun yong said wanted to go out with 4am with me to sunshine eat but go sleep T.T, in the end eat half plate of fried kuay tiao or whatever can't finish it even it is alr half before i eat the thing so that makes 1 quarter of the plate, just finished readed dar's blog made me think about the past where we used to be so close to each other, what's going to happen tmr? i hope that tmr will be a better day, i'm going to wait for her reply now aye? till morning? maybe afternooon? idk, hahas but 1 thing i know that is i'm willing to wait, be it a good reply or a bad reply, even if i don't sleep and wait, it dosen't increase the chance of getting a good reply but i know that in my heart, everything u said is more important that every single bits of money , gold or diamonds in this world, hearing this song 劉若英 - 後來 now, the lyrics is very meaningful to what i'm feeling right now, if u leave, i wun find another one like u anymore, because there is no second u in this big round earth, everyone have his or her one, and i know ur my only one.

love? to many ppl its a sickness, the most painful sickness, more painful than SARS, bird flu, cancer or whatever shit, but if love is really a sickness, i don't wan to be cured, i wan the sickness and i wan to have this sickness forever. yeah, now i know where the word, lovesick come by already, and yea, i'm lovesick and i'm really ill with this sickness, but i don't regret having this sickness yea?

i'm thinking, 1 day if u leave me, my eyes will be a mini tunder cloud which pour down rains non-stop, my heart of glass is in ur warm hands now, please be gentle with it, because if u break it, my whole world will fall apart. joyce lee xin le, i love u.

Joyce is a Plant and I'm a pig =)

2008-07-17T23:51:00.000+08:00

Haha my 1st post, its a sad day worx, never go school today, tmr is a sure die day, tmr maybe go down tampines, see what time mr tan let me go =( wow dar is a plant and i'm a pig =D that makes me laugh, my hp bao ler, i wun dare to see my bill with 3 digit numbers when it comes =(, $300+ ( dar's bill) must control worx, stayed at home the whole day, i'm going to rock my studies from now onwards and when i say rock, its A all the way =D, wow my dog bite the sword of my gundam and ran, i was chasing it around my dam house until finally i caught it, it was too late it had alr gotten teeth marks... damm =( okays today has been a quite normal day for me and i'm going to sleep soon. i [♥] joyce lee xin le =D