If your reading this, it meant I'm actually still something to you, I'm grateful and I'll keep this as short as possible.

Remember in the train, when I said, if I make another mistake, please ignore me? well, I did it again, I deserved it, I accept it and I'm not gonna whine about it.

I hate myself, because I'm the core reason for all your sadness, tears, tiredness.

You gave me many chances, 2 months, forgiven me and trying so hard to build a relationship to reciprocate me. I was stubborn, I kept making the same mistakes again and again, hurting you over and over giving you scars and tears.

Thinking about it the whole day, I came out with a decision.
Some people need to learn their lessons the hard way, and I'm one of them.

Your kind, really kind, you had been thinking about my feelings and negating your own, now its my turn to repay it.

I decided that we should stop talking to each other, I don't want to be a venom in your life and cause you harm any longer.

I'll live the next few days/weeks/months without you, I'll learn to be happy alone, I'll throw all the childishness and sissyness away. I'll improve myself. I won't approach you until I'm sure I matured. I'm gonna study hard, follow my hobby, see the world and brighten up my horizons.

Next time I talk to you, Your gonna see a new me, a mature me. I hope till then you will forgive me and accept me as a friend again.

I'm not leaving you, I'm just giving each other some space to chill out before things get worst. I just have one more request. I hope you do readd me on facebook, because if something happened to you, I do hope that I could still give you words of comfort to pull you up when you fall.

This song.. I dedicate it to you, as usual, please use your heart to listen to it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zsZ0Ovc7DzE

All of these I'm doing for, its not so that I could woo you again. Its so that I could be a better person you can rely on, comfort you and give you warmth, no matter what, I'll always care for you, even if you do hate me.

I'll stop here. Please don't text me to reply me after reading this. I want to stay strong with my decision in order not to let things go back to square one again.

I'm sorry HappyGirl Panda.
From, Your Piggy, always.

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